How we started out,
Is I thought we’d date -
Thought that I would use you
On that fateful day,
To witness something
I'd never seen before.
I found out soon
You were already off.
But I went for the tape -
That wasn’t enough
To deter me from the course
That we'd soon follow.
When you'd said nothing
To me in four months,
I figured out myself
That we were done.
And I still think that I
Haven’t quite recovered.
"A travel buddy,"
And more, you said.
More memories
Than I’d ever had;
As you and I
Explored the sprawling city.
Going metro to
The heart of it all.
Mexican Catholics,
Virgin Mary walls,
The candles and the
Quick drive down to San Mon.
And you were my best friend.
I guess that don’t mean much.
With priority,
And our lives as such,
It’s all become
A fading memory.
When you ended it,
And when you had that scare,
I gave you a hug -
You know that I was there.
And you know
I always will be.
And you tear my heart
Into halves today.
But that’s inadequate
To describe the pain -
Through all the fights, I
Never saw it coming.
Oh [Audrey]
When I see you now,
It’s like I never did.
And I am not allowed
To retain any
Affection for my best friend.
And [Audrey],
If you would talk to me,
I would tell you that
I am so sorry.
And whatever it was,
I hope you can
Forgive me.