(because, surely, I will),
how will you respond?
I know that;
I'm pretty sure that (I mean,
I think I know myself
relatively well,
and I mean,
I have past experience
to look on, and like
your professor told you,
past behaviour
dictates
future behaviour),
at some point,
I won't stick up for you
and
I'll know immediately afterward
that I should have,
but
salvage-able
the situation will not be;
I know
that at some point
I'll say the completely
wrong
thing
and
you'll grimace: that brief--
fleeting because
you won't want to let me see
your disappointment
but I'll have seen it for sure
because it's never
that I'm not, at least
surreptitiously,
creeping
admiring you
but that
heartbreaking
facial expression
that just says
so much more than any of your
disappointed yet
face-saving words
could ever;
and
at some point it's going
to become apparent
to you
that I
am not all that I'm
cracked up to be
and how,
and how will you respond?
And how will we get on?